acting solely

I live only a fake smile . I laughed when with friends . close to home when I'm sad for the family front range, nothing happens . I could not throw a fake smile . I'm not smiling as before . why am I so like this? whereas before I like to laugh, smile with a sincere smile . I lived a lot of problems . I don't know want to run away from problems that are so complicated . I always help my friends to solve the problem of these people, but I own so many problems so I gave a smile trick . but my problem a little less if you don't shackle my life da man . I feel liberated . but I want him . I feel tangled if 5 people want to couple with me . I don't want them . I want capital F only !